Monday, February 28, 2011

And This is Where it All Began!

     It is hard to believe that in 50 days from now my baby will be ten years old.  The title for this blog comes from our second son Keith.  The day Josh was born I was walking the halls of the old maternity ward at St.Lukes waiting to see if they were going to send us back home or not, when all of a sudden I had a hugh contraction right in front of the waiting room and my water broke!  Of course they had carpet not tile!  Josh was in the NICU for 12 days after he was born and when ever anyone would come to visit Keith was more than happy to take them on the tour. He always started his tour at the waiting room door with his famous words, "And this is where it all began!"  What a journey it has been!  Occassionally a few people have asked the question, "Don't you ever wish Joshua was born normal?"  Define "normal".  Can anyone?  I have heard it said on more than one occassion that we are only perfect when we come out of the womb.  I believe this to be true.  But I also believe that Josh is closer to perfect than most of us because he doesn't judge others.  He doesn't look at others disabilities or weaknesses and make fun of them or even point them out.  To Josh we are all the same.  I wish I had the ability to see everyone like that too and not have to work at it.  Do I wish Josh were born normal?  Not in a million years!  Now don't get me wrong, there are days when I ask God, "Why me?  Are you sure I am cut out for this job?"  But I can honestly say that I have learned so much from this wonderful little guy that God gave to me to look after that I wouldn't change things at all.  It's very easy to get all caught up thinking about how different things might have been especially when the day was "paved with a few extra pot holes and some speed bumps too", but then he comes up to you out of the blue and gives you a big hug and kiss and says, "Thanks Mom, I'm glad  you my mom. I love you." And I end up saying an extra thanks to God!  Thanks for bring Josh into our lives! 

1 comment:

  1. I remember when you had him. I remember how ANGRY you got at the doctors who kept saying "your baby with downs." you said to me.. "Julie he has a name and it is Joshua! They need to use it!"

    LOVE your passion for your son! LOVE your passion for life and others!!

    You are an amazing woman!

    Love you - Your friend.. city mouse